So where do I begin? Right now my mom is in the hospital with cancer. My wife, mother in law and my four month old daughter are all at my house with the flu. People are asking ‘How are you? Is there anything I can do?’ Though I am truly appreciative for the help and kind words, most of the time I don’t know how to respond. Currently, it feels like I am just treading water trying to stay afloat.
I know I’m not the first person to feel like this. We all have our moments where we feel overwhelmed, as if you are being pulled in every direction like a mid-evil torture device (is that imagery too dark?). So what are we supposed to do when we feel like that? How am I supposed to handle life when I feel like crawling in a hole until everything has passed?
Honestly, I don’t have some clear cut answer. Sure I could quote some Bible verses like they are a cut and paste remedy. I don’t think the Bible works like that though. ‘Oh you are going through this? Well here’s a verse that will help. Oh you have a question about the political/social topic? Well here’s a verse that I believe answers your question.’
I don’t want to get off topic so let me say this. The only thing I know when I am facing obstacles that seem too large for me is that God is God. He’s there in the good times, He’s there in the bad, He’s there when I doubt He exists, He’s there whenever I come running back to Him like a lost child. I don’t know why some things happen in life and I often have more questions than answers. But I know that God is real and He’s there for me.
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Matt – I know you are going thru such a rough time but you will get thru this I promise you- lean on us friends and your family and of course God! Feeling and expressing your feelings are the best things and I am so glad you are doing that- if you need anything I am here to help even if you want to talk or anything just let me know- praying for all of you thru this most difficult time!!!
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My Dearest Matt,
Know God is in control. I admire you for realizing that God is with us during the good, and bad times and the times when we think he should heal our minds and bodies. I guess what I am saying is if he can’t heal us he still is with us. In 2010 when my dad passed away I blamed everyone my family, friends and loved ones. During this time I pushed people away that I loved and lost the love the had for me. I questioned God, I asked where were you during these times? It took me almost a year to realize that he couldn’t heal my dad from the cancer and pain he was experiencing but he could take him to a better place where he didn’t hurt or be sick anymore. Today I still miss that man everyday of my life and usually speak his name daily, I know he is happy and not in pain anymore. In closing know that God knows and understands what you are feeling, he knows you need him and he is with you! Love always your cousin Kim.
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